Monday, May 30, 2005
hmmm...i am back to bloggin ler..hahax
well i am jux plain bored larhs hahax...yawns.
well todae plainy stayed the whole dae at home! ahh so not mi lors! wad happen to mi?
haix...well to mi yesterdae was not a gd dae out larhs..cux i didnt expect jeanice they all to come wid us..haix then tt zh so quiet i guess i can figure it out why larhs..hahax..nvm i feel so happy lors..guess without mi lao da they all can tok bax..yarhs its alrite wid mi..haix.the pressure is jux non-stop..my parents ask mi whether did i do my homework WTH! i hate it! i think one dae i am gonna be a gig if this goes on! FUCK MY LIFE!
WhereHaveAllTheColoursInMyLifeGoneTo?
WhatHasHappenToMi?
yIsItAllLykThat?
This few daes i hv been listernin to this song feelin down yarhs budden the tears jux cant come out and it really kills mi.cant tk it.even as everytime in the dae i do feel lyk cryin budden i cant.sumtimes i really ask myself y put on a false front when it is not wad u think?i even told myself."jasmine jux cry it out u aint tt strong always" but i juz cant.so every time i had to cry to myself infront of my computer.i dun lyk to spoil ppl mood so i juz had to cry to myself.and everytime i hear this song.[journey by zhang shao han].i will jux cry out listernin and focusin on the words of the song.the song jux really describe how i am feeling.of how i feel sumhow this song make mi pour out all my sorrow.
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you
<3 8:06 PM;
Sunday, May 29, 2005
HELLOS! (: hahax feelin bored thou..hahax... so decided to blog!?! hahx. amazin aye.
hahax..well nth happen much lors..as per normal..hahax...
Saturday 28/o5/o5
woke up in the early morning..haix. was tiring cuz the day b4 was a disaster..haix woke up early jux to go for GB hahax..tt dae was a national event larhs hahax.. bike for the bible..hahx.wanna thk the ppl tt donated for mi..Gan xie gan xie!..hahax.. yarhs furs i pack my bag pack cuz at nite gt gurls cell bonding..hahax.. then after tt went to eat wid my parents.then went to grace hse to put my cell bonding stuff.. after tt we went to skol to repor[gb]. then after some breifin and some money collection..at ard 12.40-1.00 liddat the gurls board up the bus to get to pulau ubin for the bike for the bible..hahax..it was sumthing lyk amazing race larhs..hahax.. quite fun lors..ended the race at abt 5 then we cant wait for the results cuz the bus is waitin for us..hahax...sians..nvm after reachin skol we dispersed..i went to grace hse bathe then went for cell bondin ler..haha was fun larhs the bondin..we went to bishan to eat..on the way there mi.as usual.said alot of crappy lame shit..hahax.. budden it was quite ok larhs haix but sian onli 5+faith can stay overnite the rest couldn't hahax..then after eatin we went supermarket to buy stuff for the basketball boys hahax..its for sunday de..yarhs then we went to get the bread then the ham..we actually bought 50PIECIES of ham hahax..then faith called the person "siao di" the person was lyk "are u sure u are older than mi nots"..hahax..then nvm he gave complimentry BAO! can u believe its lyk alot lors...hahax..then after tt we went back to church le..then at church crap ard and gt to know my cell ppl better..hahx..its god's credits..he made all this possible..hahax..the BB had camp larhs hahax..went to kajiao them hahax..then after tt went to bed le..hahax..
Sunday 29/o5/o5
woke up early again lyk dunno y gt to prepare the bread budden we woke up lyk damn earli lors woke up at 8.10 lors..hahax...so we went for breakfast at S11 lors then went back to prepare the bread after preparin still gt alot of time lors.. so went for service awhile hahax...then after tt went back to rest awhile then went for 2nd service at the chapel..hahax.after tt the youth[us] went to 303 for word..todae word is interesting..hahax..its bout FRIENDS! hahax..startin we had ice-breakers to break the ice wid the bbal boys hahax..then after tt melvin did the word..startin off we had a little cell discussion larhs..we are to discuss on some questions larhs :-
What are friends to u?
How do u define friends?
What barriers are there to ur friendship with ur friend?
and sumore i forgot le hahax.then after discussion melvin told us bout this story abt david whu is a very high priest and jonathan hu is a sheperd tt they both were very gd fwens and tt even if jonathan is a sheperd,he if willing to scarifice everything first jonathan gave david his ROBE.then his GARMENTS.then his SWORD AND BOW.then his GIRDLE..yarhs jonathan gave david for a reason...
It Repensent:-
ROBE-"No STATUS barrier"
GARMENTS-"No WEALTH barrier"
SWORD AND BOW-"No TRUST barrier"
GIRDLE-"No SECRETS"
yarhs...then after tt he toked bout the importance of friendship...
->GOD has never intended for us ti be alone
->We need people to share our burdens
->We need people to chare our joy
after than he ask us to ask ourselves o Give Each Other a Chance.askin ourselves.
->Do i want to allow people into my life?
->Do i want to be included in others' lives?
yarhs...tt was word after tt went out wid ivy and naw i am here bloggin haha..! needa go gonna eat dinner..buaix..
<3 6:29 PM;
Friday, May 27, 2005
i am STUPID! i am DUMB! i am USELESS!
does this explain every thing to u all!?!?
i can even get proper thing rite i make every thing a disaster...
does this gives u an answer to all ur question!?!?
is this wad u all wan?
Do u all even understand?!?
y must u all be so unreasonable?
i dun understand!
wad do u still wan from mi?!?
I HATE IT!
Y bring mi here to suffer?
Y must u do this to mi?
let mi go pls...
i am beggin u
-TheHurtsInsideIsBeyondDescription-
TheEndlessTearsJuxDropDownEveryNight
<3 10:07 PM;
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
AHHH!!! i so hate SKOL!
Wht the purpose of havin fun in skol when it is equavalent as being at home...loney boring havin to do nth...juz lyk the USELESS mi at home..haix.
Sum times i realli think...Y think of others before thinkin of myself when they dun even think bout mi?...well maybe they jux dun even care...haix...for wad...
<3 5:48 PM;
